Capitalism is a crime, and we are all the victims.

Light in Dark Places

I've got no place left to run, I'm bitterly dismissing things that have no right to my deconstruction and ridiculing them and why? Well, because I've fucking lost hope. Please don't dare tell me deep down you don't feel this way growing up in this wonderful, great, specular "land of the free".  Go to high school, participate in things that you don't want to so that later in life it looks "good on your applications" doing so,  in a sense suppressing your deepest urges to appease some bureaucrat who doesn't give a damn. Maybe I'm just a "jaded" teenager, or "hormones" (I'm 19) but every form of "help" is just another veil of capitalist rubbish. Capitalize on those who are hopeless via religion, pray to a man-made concept used to govern our ancient, ignorant ancestors. The funniest joke of them all "God loves all people". Are you serious? Open your eyes to all the people born with terminal diseases for crying out loud. Twelve step drug rehabilitation programs that encourage us to "submit ourselves to a higher power". Maybe ignorance is bliss and everyone watching the Real Housewives of X city have it right, dumb yourself down and watch it all burn. Is everyone just trolling? Every day people patronize me because I royally fucked up my hands a year ago, they talk to me in that tone and I know exactly where they're coming from every time. Pity the cripple, OK sure I get it. People look down upon me because even though I'm a lost cause, I refuse to bow down to some false deity and hope. "Why don't you go see a therapist?" they say, so I can be another victim of the capitalist conspiracy, while someone who's "achieved" enough merit via graduating from corrupt cash sinks known as colleges to be certified enough  to pretend to give a shit about me until I'm out the door. Escapism sets in.

Escapism, The Last Refuge

World of Warcraft, for the nearly 6 years I've played since open beta it has given me more memorable experiences and interactions than many of my real life exploits. There are brilliant people who seek refuge within WoW just as I do, although the main attraction for many players to attain max level and feel powerful; I've very much enjoyed experiencing the true nature of people when they don't have to wear a mask and put on a fake image in public. I'm not the best player ever, but I've achieved sought after milestones in the game such as getting Gladiator and sold many accounts for real life cash (read: heroin money). This game has been one of the only things keeping me sane I think, the daily routines I have within the game give my life a slight semblance of normalcy in my life. Accomplishing something with a group of people you once thought would never be able to grasp the concept of is spectacular! Escapism is shunned in our society, WoW players are considered pizza-faced losers with no lives who are all basement dwelling virgins, but in a society where being "successful" varies on the number of women you stick your penis into who meet a certain standard of beauty, how many "cool" cars you own or what have you, I see no reason to escape from the idiocy and increasingly degenerative society the US, and through the process of globalization even the World.

This one took a little too long to write for my liking and I know it is sloppy, but I'd kindly appreciate feedback as encouragement to keep this blog alive. Please suggest topics too!!

First Blog, Detroit, All Consuming Conglomerate Approved Media and You

The Heidelberg Project (pictured above)

Let The Depraved Rambling Commence!
Here it is then, the first blog post. I suppose this is traditionally where I'd introduce myself. I'm an American college student near Detroit, who's sick of being silent. Everyone wants to have their voice heard, it's only human after all. I believe that being from my area (the post industrial shithole our nation gladly ignored for generations.) I am provided with a skeptical (read: ANGRY) point of view that allows me to see the World in a different light than many Americans who have yet to see their cities crumble. I've seen the supposed "artistic movement" that is the Heidelberg project. I get it, it's so artsy and it represents the struggles of modern Detroit and blah blah. (Oh! It's super trendy too so be sure to take a ride there from your home in the burbs and take lots of profile pictures so you can show what a true Detroiter you really are.) Call it what you'd like, and appreciate it for what you will. It's still a pile of junk. What positive things can we do to actually make a difference in our once proud city, besides not voting for gloried players like Kwame Kilpatrick whose entire reign in political office felt like the alpha male baby daddy who tells you what you want to hear and splits leaving you to deal with his demon seed.

Shaping the "Detroiter" Image
Chrysler's Super Bowl commercial featuring Eminem even glorified living in shitiness. Yeah, being from Detroit does make you pretty bitter and angry I guess, "hardened" some might say, and it of course has it's own lovely brand of scrappy local flavor (I got quite a lovely taste of this flavor via frequent trips to dope houses during high school, what a way to experience the true nature of the city, though.) A bustling party scene makes it a popular area for college bros and their orange girlfriends as well, so they can feel like they're not just getting fucked up in some dilapidated house on a block where 3/4 of the houses are burned down, they're totally contributing to the youth movement of Detroit though, so down with the urban scene too. The commercial did have one thing right, and that was help establish Eminem even further as the face of the young Detroiter. Seeing him walk into the FOX theater with the marquee displaying "Keep Detroit Beautiful" was ironic and heartwarming as he stood in front of the choir to show his allegiance to his hometown.  (Link to ad if you watched the "Puppy Bowl" instead  in a show of flamboyant protest. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SKL254Y_jtc) I have a lot of respect for Eminem, he's dropped the  sullen, drug addled, punk kid image in favor of his new image which I have mixed feelings about and spun it into a more mature, but still delightfully brazen, up in your grill persona, some might say for for the better.

Believe nothing merely because you have been told it. Do not believe what your teacher tells you merely out of respect for the teacher. But whatsoever, after due examination and analysis, you find to be kind, conducive to the good, the benefit, the welfare of all beings -- that doctrine believe and cling to, and take it as your guide. - Buddha

The Deterioration of Free Thought in the US? 
I finally reached my breaking point on this one. Hearing canned opinions day in and day out lifted from various television news outlets day in and day out, I'm damn tired of hearing people's regurgitated parroting in a clumsy effort to have an "informed opinion". We were once a proud nation of strong, free-thinking, pioneering spirits who prided themselves on freedom. (Yes I know America was founded on slave labor, work with me here people.) We're becoming increasingly desensitized to things that would make George Washington's reanimated corpse stick his skeletal foot up our sorry collective asses. We are complacent killing women and children in foreign countries daily to defend companies such as Haliburton (google the keywords "pentagon trillions missing") and to what end? So we can have that little extra bit of a non-renewable resource that we carelessly waste with reckless abandon to  like it's our purpose? It's absolute savagery, but since we're a world superpower that makes it acceptable in the eyes of the average American. Television is almost entirely brainrot, and you should take all news shown on TV with a grain of salt, hell a shaker full of salt! Many older people in the US (read: the people who vote) are far too comfortable with the medium of communication television has provided them with since their youth, this stubbornness and lack of research is killing our ability to think freely in an era where free information is readily available to anyone who cares enough to seek it. Encourage your older family members, friends, and co-workers to research their opinions more thoroughly! (Just try not to be too condescending about it.)

Well, I really enjoyed writing this. I also hope I didn't depress you too much, I will try to keep future entries short and sweet for short attention spans. Feedback is very much appreciated!